There are times when I have bizarre mood changes from one day to the next. It’s been getting more pronounced in the last several months than ever before in my entire life. I’m usually very even keeled. Though when you have to rely more on outside influences to get something done in your career it’s often extremely difficult to cope. I took a huge risk roughly one year ago. I had finally found an agent to take me on to get my act on the road. So, I decided I’d get the CD pressed up to sell before it would be officially released. I started searching for a used tour bus I could purchase. I got the promo material together. The radio promoter ready to go, I shot a video, I found a PR person. I had a business plan and was actively searching for investment money to make everything reality. However, in the past year all the shows I’ve played I’ve gotten myself (thus negating the use of this agent who should be able to get shows, but it’s been stressfull). I held off on all the promo since I was having difficulty getting on the road. I also wanted to get distribution (which I finally did about a month ago). I even got a second agent as of a week ago. The band got antsy because there hasn’t been enough shows. So far my big gamble hasn’t worked out. Thus why I’ve been having up and down days. Yesterday wasn’t a great day when I found out I’m out an additional sum of money. It’s times like this when I have to find a bit of an escape to remind why the fuck I love music so much. Especially when I’m on the brink of saying time-to-quit.
This band is a group of guys I was fortunate to meet a few years back at a NACA showcase. They are extremely cool guys, maybe it’s their religious background – they’re Mormon, or it’s more likely because they’re a great group that has a killer vocal sound. All the instrumentation that you’re hearing is just their voices. Anyway, I chose this song because it tends to lift my spirit up due to the uptempo nature. It’s also because the lyrics are uplifting. Although it’s more about pleasing someone else that you love, I take it to mean that I’m meant to entertain an audience. Sometimes I feel like I’m just not getting in front of the right crowd of people. That comes from attempting to rely on others to get things done so you can concentrate on music. Don’t take pity on me, but if you do know a better agent or an ‘Angel’ investor, I have everything ready to roll and I’m seriously ready to deal.
In the meantime, I’ll be rolling this song over and over today in order to get me out of the funk that yesterday put me in. I believe you’ll hear that special feeling that I’m hearing in this and you’ll want to own it for yourself. Pick it up. Actually listen to a bunch of their music, Eclipse actually has several albums out. Get ’em all. They accomplish some amazing things with those six voices. May your day be a bit brighter and think a good thought or two for me. I really don’t want to get a day job. I love working my ass off for music, but its becoming frightning at the moment (and that’s not fun). Leave an encouraging word today, purchase their song, or a bunch of mine, or tell me I’m crazy for picking an a cappella song.