I’m sure a lot of us have felt a need to curl up in a ball and shut the world out. I ended up doing that yesterday myself. Every so often things can pile up and then some sort of catalyst will join the clump and start the mountain of change. You can get so used to an identity that it becomes who you think you are and when it stops moving forward it can be a shock. Couple that with meeting someone you really thought you connected with only to find out they don’t feel the same way and it will become something that is hard to handle.
Despite the fact that many of my friends would say that I’m wonderful and fabulous at a great deal of things, I’ve hit a wall that caused me to collapse. I got angry with myself, I wrote some nasty hateful lyrics, I got overwhelmed with a sense of loss, and I had to face some other realities that I was hoping to either ignore or that would change. However, it is me that is the one that has to change.
While I’m not in the greatest mind frame right now, I am beginning to reach out thru friends and family to make that change. I know it’s not gonna be easy. Like many people going thru issues in the world right now, it’s hard to see the good that is going on. I like to be the good person. I know I have good things going on, but when you truly want something or someone so badly that it hurts, it’s devastating. Or it can be.
Which essentially makes the daily title of Fallen Fridays that much more intense for me today. I feel like the frenetic energy going on in the song. All the barrage of riffs and vocals and drum beats going on in a sudo chaotic mess. Van Halen was able to sum up the concept in a very good way with this song.
I’m sure there are a lot of people who are experiencing a loss of control right now. Look to the news to see corporations dealing with it as well. It’s a chaotic time and it’s a good idea to take a moment, grab a deep breath and pull it together after letting the overwhelming feels run their course.
I hope you’re having a great day and that you’re in control.